Intro - Don't Be Afraid of the Dark Don't Be Afraid of the Dark A.k.a., The Holga Project Late 2013/early 2014 I used to think using a water metaphor to describe depression was a cliché. But for the last seven months the best word I can come up with to describe what mine feels like is an undercurrent. n. 1 a current below the surface. 2 an underlying often contrary feeling, activity or influence (an undercurrent of protest). 3. tears treading water, waiting. Or maybe that's the anxiety talking. It's not always clear which arrives first. When I first picked up a Holga, the idea was to experiment with how it and I saw the shadows and light affecting my circadian rhythms during the winter months. I hadn’t anticipated that after the winter solstice, my symptoms would get worse, continuing to pull me under well after the longest day of the year.